Reserve

"GATHERING", 2002, 40"x40", m/m
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Energy.
How to get it.
How do YOU get it? Â Really, Â I’m wanting to know.
My sense is that for YEARS, Â ages, Â eons, Â I’ve been spending my energy on others before myself.
I’ve spent it as fast as I got it.
I used to have what felt like an inexhaustible reserve. Â Now I don’t.
I am pretty empty, Â it seems.
I do one thing per day and I’m spent.
This is not the quality of life that I thrive on. Â And we don’t change, Â it seems, Â until those imaginary rainbow-colored, glittery stories we’ve lived by all this time go grey.
So… Â here’s what I’m doing:
Eat green and healthy. Â Lie down when I need to. Â Go to bed REALLY EMBARRASSINGLY early. Â Say no more often. Â Meditate.
Keep my home ordered and clean so it’s always restful to look around. Â Not do ANYTHING I don’t have to. Â Stop worrying so much and become soft in trust. Â Stay out of my head. Â Learn stuff from my dog.
I could go on but really, Â I want to keep this simple.
Here’s my litmus test:
If it feels good, ok.
If it feels hard in any way, Â let it go without judgement.
Simple, Â huh?
We’ll see…….
I am serious- Â tell me what YOU do! I need some ideas, ok?
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