I began this blog almost three years ago with the title: “HEALING THROUGH MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS.”
For a long time it felt right as I continued be introduced to the changes taking place in my body and look at what they had to teach me.
Everybody needs a new suit of clothes once in awhile and so, as you see- I have changed a few things here, most notably the name.
What does “LIVING UNDONE” mean?
Well… I think of it sort of like a blank canvas; all this stuff you thought you were is blasted away by something-or-other and you have the chance to re-make yourself..
I have never been that interested in talking much about the various symptoms associated with MS.
When I do it tends to make them worse as I direct my consciousness there.
I keep myself out of any physical or emotional or spiritual downward spiral by staying curious; curious about reasons why they might be occurring beyond western medical explanations, who I am becoming as a result of the challenges on my plate, who I want to be within them, how others are affected, the unexpected gifts woven into facing head on situations I’d rather not and thought I couldn’t and what things are important to me now and what isn’t.
The way my consciousness works within my current experience is not really that different than the 30 years I spent as a fine artist.
I make a mark (decision) and stand back to check it out.. does it enhance the whole?… does it feel good in my body?… is it necessary?..
am I proud of it?.. is it elegant? simple? graceful? nourishing? nurturing? elevating? could I and everyone else live without it? am I better for it?
I could go on here but you get the drift..
Sort of making my life my art.
Granted, this doesn’t work all the time and the ‘art’ gets pretty ugly…
I NEED to have an interesting life.
That is solely up to me.
I just try to take the hand I’ve got and play it the best I can.
It sucks that I can’t have a deep and leggy glass of wine as I sit at the table and play out the game…
But I can always wear a great dress and throw on some lipstick.