Vulnerability

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When I began writing this blog over 4 years ago

The promise I made to myself was to avoid editing myself out of truly authentic territory.

That meant telling my truth as truly as I could and not spiriting away the messy bits, the unflattering occurances, the embarrassing shit.

I, as an expert people pleaser was in search of the woman under the mask

And telling my truth is my road to HER.

There have been 3 times I have chosen to go back and delete a post because I just felt too raw after writing..too exposed.

The thing about vulnerability is that it is a universal condition and no one escapes.

Knowing this I recognize that if I have had a feeling or experience there is likely a slew of others in the boat with me, maybe cowering in the corners.

After revealing to a good friend recently that I took down a post she reminded me that my readership come here in part to get the TRUTH as opposed to a prettified scenario.

” People, your friends, WANT to hear the vulnerable stuff you deal with. Puts the beautiful parts in perspective. And makes US realize we have nothing to whine about. Put it back up. “

Arriving at a place in which one has little to lose is a freedom gift extraordinaire.

I am here.

And somewhat broken.

But strangely grateful for the lovely, lovely scars

Each with a story of resolve and resilience

Adding to the creation

Of today’s Cathy

Who ties (sometimes with help) a Parisian silk scarf around her sagging neck

And re-enters Life

In partnership with the scars

Which are quiet

Having been given the air-time

They each demanded and deserved.

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4 Responses to “Vulnerability”

  1. Carole Zoom on June 24th, 2018

    This poem will become a woodblock.

  2. Ellen Fox on June 24th, 2018

    I can REALLY relate. Gorgeous pot.

  3. Jenny on June 24th, 2018

    Hard Cathy ,hard. To know what to say sometimes, and all the mess and muddle I get in. And the physical stuff – mostly people don’t want to know or I project my feelings at them. And several people yesterday asked what I have been doing and it seems so little, but I am not sure it is, and I don’t say because I don’t want the little trampled over. And so they sort of walk away. Xxxx to you and Em

  4. Dennis Chamberlain on June 29th, 2018

    Thank you for another stirring post – another post that tells us more about you and yet lets us understand more still about ourselves.

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