The Beginning

Thin Line

The most power is held at the edge of things; as day moves into evening, the seemingly instantaneous arrival of an idea, the moment of conception or the delivery of a diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis. What was before can never be reclaimed and the road ahead is a mystery. There is the scent of dread as well as adventure. The territory is far from static and infused with the specter of grief and the anticipation of a miracle. How can one not be interested in this landscape?

Even as I write, the hairs on my arm quiver of their own accord. THIS IS LIFE!. Messy. Intriguing. Startling. Juicy. Sci-Fi. Wretched. Right. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not out here ‘Polly-Annaing’ my way around this rugged course called MS. I am, however choosing to heal. For me, that means refining my life by taking stock of what facilitates my healing and what does not. ‘Healing’, to me, means a myriad of things and not solely the absence of MS and my eventual return to ‘normal’. My diagnosis came in 2000. I would never wish this challenge on anyone however I am becoming a woman I really like and an artist creating closer to her authentic core. Thus, my interest in the power at the edge of things. Does this mean we, as humans never really get to play at full tilt until part of the gameboard is taken away? Is it our human nature not to even notice perfection until it isn’t? It doesn’t seem fair but then, with a little time on it, the complaint is moot as I settle into what is, just for the innate beauty and rightness of it all.

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15 Responses to “The Beginning”

  1. Carol Aten on May 3rd, 2009

    Yay Cathy! we are here for you and look forward to listening and loving 🙂

  2. David Jansheski on May 3rd, 2009

    Dear Cath-
    I read this about 6 weeks ago. I think it is over the top incredible writing. Powerful- realistic, mind awakening, poetic, heartfelt, and authentic. No bullshit.

    You inspire me on many frontiers, but especially in writing. I will continue and someday will send you what I have been working in the medium of words.

    I love you-

    DJ

  3. Laurene on May 3rd, 2009

    Cathy,

    This is gorgeous. Rings clearly as Truth. Thank you.

  4. Mariela Rodriguez on May 3rd, 2009

    Very talented and very inspiring!

  5. Alexandra on May 3rd, 2009

    As always, you are brilliant in speaking your truth and seeing the light in the darkness. Thank-you for leading the way and inspiring your readers. Love, Alexandra

  6. Pam on May 3rd, 2009

    Cathy –
    WOW! POWERFUL! BEAUTIFUL! OF THE HEART AND FULL OF POETRY AND AUTHENTICITY > YOU.
    You, your life, your work are seamless.
    I look forward to continuing this experience with you and this format is so fantastic as one aspect of it.
    Thank you.

  7. bill on May 3rd, 2009

    Wherever your healing path leads, you will be guided by your heart’s bright light.

    Please write more about what you see on the way.

  8. Jen on May 4th, 2009

    What a beautiful setting for your writing — congratulations on your launch!! Don’t forget to post your other works, like the 10 things you’ve gained & lost, poem about spring, etc. Others would love to read those as well.

  9. Joe Lally on May 4th, 2009

    Cath,
    You know I have your back. Thanks for everything.

    Joe

  10. pwhiting on May 4th, 2009

    I have been priveleged to know this lady forever. The strength of her spirituality
    never ceases to astoniish nor inspire me. Her wisdom and shared insights are those of the consumate healer.

    (according to my machine superintendent of spelling, this note is riddled with erors. where is that darned editor?)

    blessings PW

  11. Scott on May 4th, 2009

    Hey sis…What powerful words. You make it very clear that “change” happens and this is life. I’m very proud of you and love you very much.
    me.

  12. emily on May 4th, 2009

    sent to me by friend of 30 years.
    most likely because she knows that i also was diagnosed, howeer, 18 years ago.
    my “art” is inside and on the outside is my home.
    my music and you now inspire me. would love to share our diagnosis info
    someday.
    ill certainly read more indepth now that ive found you.
    thankyou for your everything…..look forward…..

  13. Jen on May 5th, 2009

    Cathy you are full of light and love! Thank you for sharing.
    xo jen

  14. David Green on May 5th, 2009

    Brave, bold, beautiful, inspiration is what you are

  15. Marian de Haas on October 25th, 2009

    Every so often I check in on your website and look at the pristine work that you’re doing. Your words are also pristine. Remember the beautiful sculpture of the iconic woman you gave us years ago? She broke. But your beautiful sculptured painting still hangs in my livingroom. Just wanted you to know that your work and your words are beautiful. Thank you for that. Marian

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