Wanting….

"SECRETS OF WOMEN",  1994, 45" x 45",  ceramic, wood, m/m

"SECRETS OF WOMEN", 1994, 45" x 45", ceramic, wood, m/m

 

Yesterday I ate a chocolate.

Then I couldn’t walk.

Recently I caved and ate french fries.

The next day my joints were totally weak and stayed that way most of the day.

My usual diet these days is pretty raw with lots of blended vegetables and fruit, salads and some organic protein.

I eat this way because of lifelong digestive issues and the recognition that certain foods render me seriously weak.

All our bodies are toxic to a certain extent from eating refined foods for so long and our environment full of non-natural substances we are forced to maneuver.

My real sense is that a good portion of my daily weakness can be assuaged by pinpointing dietary triggers individual to me.

There ARE certain foods alot of people dealing with MS seem to be affected by:   sugar,  chocolate,
trans-fats are some of them.

Sometimes,  like yesterday,  my rational mind just takes flight and I WANT.

This path to health  (whatever that looks like)  is a constant Zen master at my back with a stick rapping me on my shoulder when I fall asleep.

I’m not sorry for this enforced urge toward consciousness.

But sometimes a girl just wants chocolate…

And she pays…

And she pays..

And maybe makes a different choice next time.

And walks tall.

I wonder when the rewards for eating totally clean and being strong will outweigh the perceived pleasure of feeding my human WANTS..

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2 Responses to “Wanting….”

  1. Lindi on August 9th, 2009

    I don’t know where you are physically, but maybe your reaping the benefits already and just don’t realize it. Maybe you could be worse physically than you are now. I’m just reading what I’ve written and it seems like maybe I’m assuming too much. But I hope you understand what I’m trying to say.

  2. Cathy on August 9th, 2009

    I LOVE what you wrote…. thank you and I think you are right. Good wake up call. I tend to be ssssssooooooo hard on myself so thanks…..

    Cathy

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