Good Birthday

“BLACK MESA”, 1996, 3′ x 7′, m/m

My birthday is actually way back in February but it was snowing then.

And I told my good friend that what I REALLY wanted as a gift was to go with her to Christ in the Desert Monastery.

Since yesterday was her real birthday, we made the journey together.

It is a LONG drive there over 13 miles of washboard road and I just don’t seem to have the stamina to make the whole trip alone these days.

Believe me, I have tried, but I get to the halfway point and have to turn around.

So, my friend driving was a fabulous gift.

The place is my top spiritual haunt.

If I have to find God in a hurry, this is where I go.

It has nothing to do with the fact it is a monastery.

It’s the place.

And the journey.

The last hour of the drive is along a rushing river with the road often one lane and curving round perched high on a cliff.

The sage is out now and the air was clear and bright yesterday.

You see stuff you’d never see in the city like where we stopped for lunch: a giant tree had fallen long ago and there happened to be a deer which unfortunately met it’s demise in that moment.

My dog found the remains of skeleton and fur and was ecstatic.

It was weird to see that moment marked like that.. what are the chances?

We had a perfect picnic off the tailgate and felt very blessed.

We saw hawks and wildflowers and red,yellow and green rock cliffs.

Not a human sound anywhere.

The chapel at the end is extraordinary.

It is a lovely form of communion to share a previously private experience with a friend.

Prayer alone is one thing. Prayer in good company is another.

I loved our day. It felt fun and full and tender and fulfilling.

I think the biggest healing part of the journey is the experience of leaving all the habitual static of my life behind for a day; all the drama and familiar worries and concerns about the future and unanswerable questions and other peoples’ ‘stuff’ that seems to stichk to me like glue.

For the day, I am free.


One Response to “Good Birthday”

  1. Pamela Markoya on May 26th, 2010

    That is what birth days are…free and filled with Grace, my dear friend.
    Thank You.

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