Too Fast


“BIG SWEEP”, 1999, 30″ x 30″, m/m
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I spent the best part of the night in the emergency vet clinic the other day.

Olivia was screaming as she jumped on the bed or lying listless far, far away from me as she slept only to wake me by wrapping herself tightly around my neck.

Something was very wrong.

Turns out she was constipated.

And I know why…

I am not happy about relating this story but I am confessing rather than self-flagellation.

Turns out that I have been so enamored of the speed my new wheelchair tops out at that I’ve been enjoying myself a bit too much and forgetting to stop and smell the roses, so to speak.

Olivia has been so game in keeping up with my pace and her little body looks so trim and buff that I thought she was enjoying the whole thing.

When she seemed tired I would pick her up and she’d ride proudly in my lap.

But how, oh how could I have been sssssssoooooooo dense that I didn’t give her enough time to do her business?

I am mortified at the realization I put my piddly need for speed over her basic bodily functions.

I saw what I wanted to see; my beloved dog finally getting to take a long walk with ME instead of the dog walker.

A dog who looked alert and happy for the adventure of it all.

And one eager and beside herself to go out and do it again and again.

The heartwrenching thing about the critter I live with is the fact that she keeps forgiving me for all my failings.

No matter what, she looks up at me with impossibly alive eyes and wagging her butt as she waits patiently to do the next thing with me; whatever it is.

I am grateful for another chance to hone my love into something more fine tuned toward her well being.

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2 Responses to “Too Fast”

  1. Pam on May 20th, 2010

    Sweet four-legged beings. We are so fortunate. XO

  2. Carol Aten on May 21st, 2010

    what a loveable reality check! ok shit happens…

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