untitled, ceramic, 7″ x 1″, 1999

As my physicality keeps shifting into the unknown, my life’s purpose moves as well.

I am being drawn toward youth mentoring.

I have a life I feel great about and I seem to be able to add to this recipe I’ve concocted for a thriving existence, bit by bit.

At a dinner party recently the topic turned toward mentors we each remembered making efforts on our behalf in our youth.

Folks who, in the often smallest of ways, changed our lives for the better.

The energy expenditure was so small, it seemed, as we looked back.

And yet, those tiny chapters of support made us better. Stronger. More able to trust ourselves and our gifts.

Some of us at that table felt the cavernous vacancy of mentorship in their lives.

“I am a self-made man” he said, with a whisper of grief and weariness flitting across his face.

This person happens to have made himself into a full fledged MD on his own steam.

I did not have the luxury of count-on-able parenting but I did have a couple people who backed me up for long enough to give me a sense of my wings.

A gymnastics coach and an art teacher come to mind.

Now, as an adult woman, I have the gifts of muscle memory from my gymnast days and an innate trust and comfort in my ability to create.

Would I have the deep and secure sense of myself had these people not turned themselves toward me as they did?

How much harder do we have to work at claiming or even discovering our fledgling selves if we have to do it alone?

I have it in me now to give what I’ve earned in life to those just now approaching the labyrinth.

How odd life is.. that it bends and shifts as it does.

An art career moves into a writers life and the next page has a picture of a woman-with-walker approaching a grade school.

Who is writing this story, anyway?????????


One Response to “Mentoring”

  1. Barry on November 1st, 2010

    “Philosophy is perfectly right in saying that life must be understood backwards. But one forgets the other clause – That it must be lived forward.”
    – Søren Kierkegaard (1855-1913)

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