Big/Small


“GIFT”, 2004, 14″ x 4″ x 4″, ceramic, steel
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I found a great new physical therapist

Who balances my habit and love of pushing into physical movement

With the ability to save me from myself

By reining me in to avoid fatigue.

She advocates very small movements as she is Feldenkrais trained.

When she introduces me to these new and very intimate moves

Something inside of me is wide-eyed with awe

At the power in this smallness.

I am an American.

We are a space-conquering culture.

I am educated to make a mark for myself;

BIG and even BIGGER, SWEEPING MOVEMENTS are the thing.

Not tiny little wanderings of a muscle

Tucked deep in my torso.

How surprised was I

To slip into the almost unbearable communion

With my very own self

As I moved so reverently

And became so much more.

But…

I LIKE FAST!

I LIKE BIG!

SEE ME! SEE ME, Won’t you please?

No one was there to witness the perfection of that little move my muscle made.

It was mine alone.

It was easy.

It was fun.

No effort-ing involved.

And the result was extraordinary.

I WAS MORE! I WAS BETTER! I WAS STRONGER!

That, I think, is the crux of the thing I’m trying to get to here…

Easy, effortless, fun = very, very fine result.

Who would’ve thought?

Easy, effortless, fun, easy, effortless, fun, easy, effortless, fun, easy, effortless fun..

(Just taking a moment to get used to the idea…)

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3 Responses to “Big/Small”

  1. mary mennenga on June 19th, 2011

    It tends to be the smallest moves that do the most good for me and the big ones bring everyone together for flexibility.

  2. Dorothyanne Brown on June 19th, 2011

    fantastic! Hope it helps you a lot. I went to a physio who did myofascial release – wow. Felt awful and then so so much better.

  3. Laura Hegfield on June 21st, 2011

    I used to work with a feldenkrais practitioner, years ago…it was wonderful. I guess as a yoga teacher (well I still think of myself that way)…I have had the experience of knowing the subtlety and satisfaction of micro movements too…it is powerful to feel yourself moving from deep, deep within…more than the average person would ever guess. Thank you for reminding me of what I knew but haven’t thought about in a while…feeling frozen in my body…yes, I need to practice more micro movement and release my grief for the gross movement that is so challenging now. So easy to forget what we know in our muscles and bones…the mind too often gets in the way.

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