Radical Security


detail of “LIFT”, ceramic, earth
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The fire has now burned 138,000 acres.

The smoke has blessedly stayed to the west of Santa Fe

But the raw unease of ash on my car in the morning

And a frightening stillness

In this unusual air

Makes us all keep one eye on the skies.

The heat is fierce.

It weakens my eager body

And I leave my ‘to do’ list

Undone.

Again.

I lie prone.

With Olivia draped on my chest.

In that small moment

I get bored with the frustration of TRYING TO DO stuff

And sink into listening

To my dog’s even breath.

I have too many changes going on in my life

And it would be so damn easy to wear my ‘worry cloak’ around at all times;

Signaling to all: THIS ONE NEEDS HELP! SHE IS SINKING! MERCY ON THIS GIRL!

But really,

I am so fine.

And why is that? you might ask.

Well, I am quite sure it is because I have done the work it takes

To unearth a truly authentic Self.

She has some gravity to her.

Some roots have grown long and strong

And my ‘beingness’ is not dependent on my circumstances

Anymore.

Of course, I am not immune at all.

But I am more curious

Than downtrodden.

And in the midst of the smoke and fire

I feel my dog’s sweet trust

Lying here on my heart

And I am rich.

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One Response to “Radical Security”

  1. Alexandra Eldridge on July 12th, 2011

    you are my hero!!!!!! how blessed I am to know you. xxxA.

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