“Good Medicine” continued..


‘ALEXANDRA’S INFLUENCE’ 1995, 16″ x 16″, m/m
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introduction continued..

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In three years time, chiropractors and massage therapists and psychotherapists and injections became too familiar as my body slipped into and out of working order at an alarming rate. I became an unreliable friend as I cancelled more often than followed through on plans. Eighty percent of my life energy was going toward worry, pill taking and trying to keep my wobbly balance a secret. Life was getting narrow.

My ability to tame my point-of-view concerning physical illness has been my best medicine. Somehow, I have always recognized that between the lines of a diagnosis etched in stone are possibilities no one ever talks about. These gifts are born of the shadows cast from any illness; chronic or otherwise.

I love my life. This is not pie-in-the-sky denial talking. Of course, I am not thrilled with every second of every day but on the whole, for me, life is very good. My creativity has naturally segued from labor intensive art making into writing which feels natural and satisfying. My values are shifting from ‘out there’ gratification toward cultivating my own garden. I am judicious as to who and what I invite into the new world I am creating. I understand obstacles as challenges and way-showers inviting me into pockets of life that feed me deeply. I cry more and feel washed clean. My laugh is ready and real. I sense a transparent quality about myself reflected in the eyes of others. I am more authentically Cathy than I knew I could be and I like her very much.

My intention with this book is to change the paradigm of disability in our culture; to lift the societal veils surrounding illness and reveal a very new color palate enriched by humor, beauty and an honest look at possibilities instead of the narrow prescriptions of our well-meaning medical professionals.

I can promise you a laugh or two, a tear perhaps and certainly the tools I’ve found to craft a life of possibility instead of the out of control downward spiral all too often offered those of us in partnership with a high-maintenance body.

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4 Responses to ““Good Medicine” continued..”

  1. ari on August 1st, 2011

    hi, this is so beautifully expressed. i look forward to reading more.

  2. Carmen A. on August 2nd, 2011

    Good luck with your newest project. I’ll be cheering you on from the shadows.

  3. Elisa on August 4th, 2011

    Beautiful like the writer!

  4. Laura Hegfield on August 6th, 2011

    “Somehow, I have always recognized that between the lines of a diagnosis etched in stone are possibilities no one ever talks about. These gifts are born of the shadows cast from any illness; chronic or otherwise.” I love this Cathy!!!! There is indeed much more to this than the meds and the “illness”…life is different, yes…but still there is sweetness, there is beauty, there is kindness, there is the great gift of being present with what is…what ever is and opening our hearts to just “this” with grace and gratitude. Not possible all the time, but more and more often when we practice mindfulness. That is what I am aware of anyway.

    xo
    Laura

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