God With Some Skin On

This has been a roiling year for me..

Thanksgiving approaches and I check out my ratio of soft heart to armoring up.

I look back on who I was last year at this time and I don’t recognize that woman.

She used to be more gregarious and outwardly-purposeful.

I didn’t know love as intimately last year as I do now.

For this knowingness, much in my life has been traded: projects, food, muscle control and body functionality, a full life.

What initially feels like emptiness

Opens into a space populated by pure preciousness: my family who have circled the wagons round.. my beloved four-legged personal exultation of untainted spirit I am privileged to co-habitate with…. friends who keep their eye on me and their distance when I am hunkered down… healers generously spreading their salve on my beingness…helpers shopping and cleaning so I may rest in beauty…strangers opening doors and silently checking on my ok-ness…advocates stepping up and raising their voice where mine falls silent…soup-makers, screwdriver-weilders, magic money, dog walkers and internet comrades…silent prayer givers, tear wipers and inspirers all…..

Is this not a life of richness?

I think yes.


10 Responses to “God With Some Skin On”

  1. leslie on November 20th, 2012

    hello! i found your blog through laura’s (shine the divine) and although i don’t have ms, my dear friend does (and i suffer from a chronic illness that leads me down many similar paths.) also, i am priveleged to share my home with, as you so wonderfully put it, a “beloved four-legged personal exultation of untainted spirit .” mine takes the form of a basenji 😉

    anyway, i find your blog both beautiful and encouraging, and just wanted you to know. (I’ve had a pretty roiling year, myself.)

  2. gerry harty on November 20th, 2012

    So very beautiful Cathy…wishing you and Olivia a very happy Thanksgiving…xoxo Gerry

  3. patricia flasch on November 21st, 2012

    Dear Cathy and Olivia:
    I just had a look at your Thanksgiving blog and my heart is filled with life and truth and a desire to bow towards you and these tears are holy tears.
    love, patricia

  4. CONSTANCE BUCK on November 21st, 2012

    My cup runneth over………..Beauty surrounds, Thank ful that you are a part of it. I Love you. connie

  5. CONSTANCE BUCK on November 21st, 2012

    “Once a young woman asked Hafiz, “What is the sign of someone knowing God?”
    Hafiz remained silent for a few moments and looked deep into the young person’s eyes,
    then said, “Dear, they have dropped the knife. They have dropped the cruel knife
    most so often use upon their tender self and others.”

  6. Russ Canfield on November 21st, 2012

    You are a person of such depth and softness. Sigh.

    My alaskan malamutes are getting a little rowdy these days with the colder weather and winter on the way.
    Be good for goodness sake,

  7. Diane Winters on November 22nd, 2012

    Cathy your words are beautiful as are you I hope you have a wonderful thanksgiving and I send youmy love and my prayer. ho eto see you soon Diane

  8. Gay on November 23rd, 2012

    Dear Cathy,

    This is a beautiful recap of where you are now with all your thankfulness included. I’m thankful for you in my life and I hope this year will bring you more healing inspirations and LOVE,

  9. laura Hegfield on December 3rd, 2012

    yes, yes, yes again beautiful soul… rich for the giving, rich for the receiving, rich for the loving, the caring, the gratitude too is a richness to be shared. Thank you for shining your light in my life, our lives through your writing, your art, your essence that glows here on your blog. I’ve missed you.

  10. Joe Lally on December 4th, 2012

    And you are MY hero. Courage comes in many forms. 36 this December and I thank God for it because people like you were in my life to inspire me.

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