Hierarchy of Hardware


My first physical support was a walker.

I began using it when I couldn’t ‘pass’ anymore as fully-abled.

It only became ok for me to weave this thing into my life when someone asked: “Cathy, do you deserve support?”

Before that it was all ego and vanity and denial. Still is at times.

Following the walker came an elevated toilet seat, leg brace to the knee, knee brace, then full leg brace.

Somewhere in there my first power wheelchair was miraculously gifted to me.

Another miracle was my ODYSSEY minivan complete with wheelchair lift.

Each increment of hardware acquisition has brought little deaths to who I was and demanded I do what it takes to recalibrate to the present and move forward from there.

The most recent hardware addition is the best one of all..

It is a tilt recline-lift chair which is like a LAZY BOY but has the function of lifting me out of the chair to standing. (not pictured above)

This gift came once again from my amazing sister and brother-in law.

She courageously broached the idea when she knew I was in search of furniture for my new place and wrote asking if this idea was at all appealing. Her sensitivity in presenting this new idea was something I will always remember.

I NEVER would have thought of this myself as I had a whole story going on about those chairs looking like a sick, old persons’ kind of thing.

But some are great looking (read:passable) and I HAVE ONE!

She researched and found it for me.

And you should be very, very jealous

Because it truly is a fine thing.

I recline and sink into this great combination of puffiness and structure.

It has this odd effect on me akin to what ultimate safety feels like.

I drop in and really rest… really r…e…s….t…

Funny what the right kind of support does to ones’ psyche.


2 Responses to “Hierarchy of Hardware”

  1. gerry harty on August 25th, 2013

    your sister sounds like a very wonderful person and she is so lucky to have you also a wonderful person! By the way there is nothing wrong with some ego,vanity and denial.I have found denial to be a form of Hope! I use it a lot!!! xoxo gerry

  2. laura Hegfield on August 25th, 2013

    this looks like a wonderful gizmo Cathy… I will forward a link to my friend Tammy who might find this a useful and comforting support in her life if not now than one day. It has been a long time since last I visited you, I’m so glad I took a moment this evening. You float through my consciousness more often than you probably imagine. Blessings to you beautiful, beautiful soul.

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