It Feels So Good…

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Today is my birthday.

It feels so good to feel so good.

At last, I do believe I have turned a corner toward recovering the Cathy I knew before I had to move 6x in 6 months, landed in my lovely new place and began to reclaim myself with rest and more rest.

I feel very good.

Very good.

I am somehow different.

Some veil has dropped.

Some more of me surrendered.

A new softness.

Yes, a softer heart which is all I’m after anyway.

My sense is that this loveliness is arriving due in part to connections with and support from old friends, new friends, current friends and family (non-human too).

I am not sure what has shifted to allow this miraculous web of support I am in the midst of receiving.

There is not a cell of me which feels alone in my challenges and this is new.

I do believe that likely this past ‘solo steerage’ had surely been self imposed in large part

But also behaviors and ways of being taken on in childhood to keep me feeling safe.

Now- I need them not.

And for this new sense of room left to me in their absence

I take a deep bow

To my own fortitude

And to those who walk at by side, unbidden but devoted just the same.

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8 Responses to “It Feels So Good…”

  1. Dorothyanne Brown on February 6th, 2014

    Wow. Sounds like you have taken a shaking and are settling in and finding your balance! More power to you!

  2. Muff on February 6th, 2014

    Happy Birthday, Cathy! Your wellness shines in your words!

  3. Judy on February 6th, 2014

    Happy Birthday! I’m glad the current is going in the right direction.

  4. Carole Zoom on February 6th, 2014

    What a great birthday present to yourself, and all of us too!

  5. CarrieBallantyneEckhold on February 6th, 2014

    Happy Birthday Cathy!! I am so grateful for your sharing.
    Your incredible rich words that carry so much light and
    understanding. You are giving us gifts.

    I will call soon. Happy Birthday

  6. gerry harty on February 7th, 2014

    Happy Birthday fellow Aquarian!!! Great post!

  7. Barry on February 8th, 2014

    Sorry I’m late, but Happy B’day. Hope it was a wonderful day for you.

  8. Rita Kindl Myers on February 9th, 2014

    Happy birthday! I follow your blog and find my life is richer for it. Thank you! Rita

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