Quiescence

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photo credit: Sharon Rose Dozar
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Quiescence, in the world of electronics means an electrical current holder (wire) which is at rest- no current running through it.

I posted the photo above as a documentation of the hardware I negotiate my life with.

They each lend me support which I try to appreciate.

Those accustomed to the blessed freedom of nonchalance in the mobility department would be hard-pressed to know the level of dedication it takes to remain dignified in this world I inhabit.

Thus- the title of this post which reflects my desire: that of a life lived in the non-suffering state I know to be possible through the Akido way of non-resistance. This means working to keep my circuits easy and empty of judgement, shame, grasping at a different state, frustration, anger, hopelessness, regret, et al…

Even hope, satisfaction, pleasure, knowledge, fun, communion sully the innate quiescence of the current.

Clean and empty.

This is hard to allow. Hard to even imagine.

But the alternative is a techno-jumble which balloons out the tender insulation of the wire; “THIS IS TOO HARD! THAT PERSON DOESN’T GET IT! I HATE THIS WHEELCHAIR! I WANT A DIFFERENT LIFE! I WANT TO WEAR THOSE DRESSES THE BALLROOM DANCERS WEAR!”

Or the flip side: “THAT CAKE IS SO GREAT! I BELIEVE THAT TOO! THIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO HEAL AND I’M EXCITED TO TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD TO SEE THE HEALER-MAN!” I ACTUALLY GOT THAT AWARD! Yeah me!”

Dignity is my main medicine.

For me, I work to hold the opposites in my body and mind.

Not negating any thing. Just witnessing, watching, being curious.

It is a huge job.

The graduate course, in fact.

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One Response to “Quiescence”

  1. Dion flannwry on March 20th, 2014

    And you do it very well

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