What Happens When We Help

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Some good girlfriends came over last night.

They make me happy.

So alive and shiny.

Because I am assisted by Medicaid I am eligible for in-home help for which I am eternally grateful.

In the news this is called an “entitlement”.

The word makes me squirm a bit as it has a sort of foul aftertaste to it, don’t you think?

In my reality this service allows me to feel dignified as my home is clean and laundry done and food shopped for; all things I can not do.

And so- last evening I felt shiny too as I opened the door to my friends.

One of them came laden with the ingredients for a spectacular dinner: barely toated chopped kale massaged with fine olive oil and garbanzo beans, cherry tomatoes.

Laid atop rested marinated goat cheese from heaven and the plate surrounded by poached chicken.

In the center of my living room rests an orchid plant with (no joke) 16 unfathomably white and delicate blooms.

This was a gift from another fine, fine friend.

These are remarkable women who know me; my truths, my secrets, my honorable and sometimes ugly humanness.

They see me.

And in each of their own inimitable ways, let me know I matter very much.

My family has rallied round me too which, I am fully aware feels exhausting at times.

I am the eldest of 4 and I did not foresee my current state of dependance though in all fairness..no one could.

The thing I am pointing to today is this:

When we move outside ourselves and extend tendrils of our heart toward those we love or see in need

The gargantuan quality of the effects of even a small effort can not be underestimated.

I woke today feeling strong; I live with beauty, ate a meal with friends of the stellar variety, enjoy the safety and accessibility of my fabulous apartment because of my family, an organized kitchen and closet because of a friend, have a healthy dog due to another friend’s assistance and the few times I was out of my wheelchair today

I stood very, very tall indeed.


4 Responses to “What Happens When We Help”

  1. Carole Zoom on June 7th, 2014

    We should all have such dignity. Entitlement.

  2. Rita Kindl Myers on June 7th, 2014

    A beautiful description…. thanks for sharing.

  3. Bryan Adams on June 8th, 2014

    Awesome . . . the morning just got brighter and more lovely. Thanks.

  4. Irene Peake on June 15th, 2014

    True friends who love you no matter what are a real treasure.

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