Letter to God

hospital
ceramic, 1992? approx. 4×3″
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Dear God,

I am frickin’ tired of character building. Let’s have a break, ok? Honestly- Can’t you find someone else to work with for a bit?
I hesitate sayin’ all this as I do just love the blessings-part you continue to bestow on me and don’t for a second want you to think I am an ingrate but REALLY!

My prayers have been lean and mean of late; “God, you show up now with (strength, optimism, money, a latte, person-who-can-help-with….., resilience enough to deal with……., a good (no GREAT) joke, computer tech support, that new shirt I need to replace the falling apart one, bladder control,

You do it NOW OR ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Cathy pauses to pull up her big-girl panties and proceed as an adult).

Really, God- if you will do these things for me (in my best voice-of-supplication) I’ll give you back something really good..I mean REALLY good. Something that you’d really like. What would you like from me?

I suppose it’s more rising from the ashes type stuff.

YUK. You just gotta give me a break here for awhile, God. I love you and all but I need to put my soul in a hammock for a good while.

A hammock, God.. Got it?

Thanks, Amen and all that..”

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7 Responses to “Letter to God”

  1. Peggy Nelson on July 15th, 2014

    Hi Cathy…. I hear you. Sadly, I know all to well the issues you speak of. At the same time it is comforting to know that I am not alone… And I have to admit that your post made me smile at the humor in asking God for a hammock for your soul. What color would you like? Is it free standing or attached to a tree?

    Just having fun with you….. 🙂

  2. Judy on July 15th, 2014

    Amen!

  3. gerry harty on July 15th, 2014

    Cathy the times I’ve really gotten mad at God and told him so are the times that immediate help has come!!! So here’s to you girlfriend!!! xoxoxo Gerry

  4. Jenny on July 15th, 2014

    No not rising from the ashes because that would make you a Phoenix ! Although imagine the feathers ! And all of us need you as a human being. Who channels her huge creativity into glorious words about messy and real stuff and images. You see many of us have different skills or jobs or whatever and can’t find the poetry or creativity to say the numinous or ?ineffable . But yeh, I am with Gerry-Come through God ! Come through! For Cathy , for us For all who need you today , anywhere on our hurting planet.

  5. Jane on July 15th, 2014

    Amen to ALL that.

  6. Rita Kindl Myers on July 15th, 2014

    Funny, I was thinking very similar thoughts lately. Do I really have to keep going on like this? Another summer in this MS body…, when I’d like to do simple summer things, like go to the beach, go for a hike, go camping. Everything takes so much planning, so much effort. I can’t do anything without worrying about bladder control. The secret is I rarely express these thoughts. Letting go of them feels good. Thanks for the opportunity.

  7. Cathy on July 15th, 2014

    I just love all your comments and so appreciate you being out there reading as these secrets we keep are so exhausting and I just feel better sharing them with (when I am able) a little dollop of humor. Couldn’t do it without you!

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