I Love Being an Adult

"BLUE GIRL"  11 x 11"   m/m

“BLUE GIRL” 11 x 11″ m/m

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It is quietly white out there.

The snow rests so comfortably on cars, trees and grasses.

All sound is buffered. Hushed.

I woke and turned languidly in my sheets thinking how ecstatic it felt to not be young and waiting out there in the grey for the mustard yellow school bus.

Every time I see one of those my stomach tenses.

Now- I am free.

I choose my state of mind.

I must keep it interesting as often as possible.

When I remember Mrs. Spencer teaching me history as a young girl

The smell of the room invades my head and I think of her dry, wrinkly dryness

Devoid of passion for much of anything.

I hate history.

My heart turned toward the wetness of Biology and ceramics and paint and Nature;

The depth of anthropology and psychology;

The vast spaciousness of questions instead of fact.

Mrs. Spencer’s dryness lives in me as a leaden barrier to Life.

I feel the creep of urge to be generous and pour whatever Love I have learned

Into the hearts of the young ones all waiting out there in the chill for the bus to come.

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One Response to “I Love Being an Adult”

  1. CarrieBallantyneEckhold on January 30th, 2015

    My stomach tenses too at the sight of a school bus!! Probably in that History class with you and I agree. History is not my thing. What lights me up is science. You pour your love and wisdom into everyone you meet and touch with your words. Thank you. Carrie

    I read your blog everytime you post. Thank you for your words. When I see a post my stomach does not tense, my heart can’t wait to open the mail.

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