Turning 60

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I’m fairly sure I am going a little crazy.

My posts have been so self-deprecating and close to nonsensical on occasion.

I was watching the Golden Globe Awards on TV last night and a favorite celebrity was giving her acceptance speech in which she acknowledged her husband for loving “complicated women.”

I can relate. We’re a handful.

But the “handful” I speak of reminds me of a photograph of what beach sand looks like up close.

Every color, shape, texture, pattern is miraculously revealed upon closer observation.

In a couple weeks I will have my 60th birthday.

Little deaths; physical, emotional and spiritual have become almost daily companions in my landscape.

My consciousness seems to balk at the shift my attention prefers these days- that of my attraction not so much the FORMS Life displays but that underlying force or space between which connects us all.

It is mysterious, ineffable, numinous.

It calls me and I have very little language.

Approaching 60, what connection means to me is shifting. I know Love more intimately at this age and that seems like a fine, fine take-away from what has felt like a complicated life-landscape.

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4 Responses to “Turning 60”

  1. Nina on January 12th, 2015

    Cathy! You take my breath away. You take my breath away. Can the world know your courage and words of wisdom. Thou I am certain you write them unknowing the insight and impact they deliver. A part of their beauty, those words, your words, you….yes Cathy you.

    Love

    Nina

  2. Nina on January 12th, 2015

    Cathy! You take my breath away. You take my breath away. Can the world know your courage and words of wisdom. Thou I am certain you write them unknowing the insight and impact they deliver. A part of their beauty, those words, your words, you….yes Cathy you.
    Love
    Nina

  3. Jenny on January 13th, 2015

    Yes cathy, I am with Nina- can you think of a publication? That could trace your way? If someone appears , maybe??

  4. Mel Vaz on April 15th, 2015

    Thanks so much for sharing.
    Your writing is beautiful! I live with progressive MS mostly quite well, however sometimes I’ll hit a few roadblocks and get really stuck with where I am and feel very alone (with people all around me).

    Watched your youtube video and felt immediately like maybe I could get a handle on things….maybe.

    Thanks for showing how to deal with this f***ing shitty disease so gracefully and positively! Hope your having a “good” day taking in all the goodness you can!

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