Voyeur

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installation, ceramic,earth,grasses
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Years ago, as I drove around northern New Mexico by myself

Just looking around at stuff

I saw an abandoned house in a field of blonde grasses.

It was so small. One room

And lovely in how it rested there so composed in it’s abandonment.

Way in the distance were mountains but the land this house occupied was gentle and flat.

The driveway was long ago usurped by weeds and I was too weary to cut a path all the way over there

And so I paused to look from a ways away

And then I left.

That was probably 15 years ago and here I am remembering the exact temperature of that sunny day, the bare and scratchy whisper of the grasses

And the feeling I had in my heart and lower belly when I saw that house.

What was it that got me so?

And why remember it now?

There was a dream quality to it; some human lived there, loved, felt gratitude, aloneness inherent in the chosen landscape, needing the solace of Nature to thrive and conjure.

Comfortable in their skin they purposefully left their nest and entered the world to manage necessary life-stuff and take mental notes about all the fascinating things to be seen and felt

And then returned.

It could have been me.

And perhaps it was..

In quite another dream.

But I remember.

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2 Responses to “Voyeur”

  1. Debra Moody on April 26th, 2015

    Beautiful, Cath. Your words made me feel like I was there with you – the sensation of the sun and grasses and memories floating on the warm air. Contemplative and comforting.

  2. Ruth on May 1st, 2015

    Cathy, do you know and remember how handsome and precious YOU are and look?
    If not or you can’t remember – look at YOURSELF in your video. Each time I watch you there I am deeply impressed and fascinated by your fragile beauty.

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