Mother’s Day


“TREE OF LIFE”, ceramic
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I did not have children and it was pretty much the best choice I ever made.

Was never drawn to the progeny experience.

Having a man in one’s life you’d like to disappear boundaries with in the heat of love is an element which seems to help usher in baby souls waiting in line for the grand slide into existence.

Lacking that element and the general impetus to give birth physically allowed me the space to do what I feel I was meant to do: use this time to re-acquaint myself with my original intelligence; the one that gets plastered over with the heroin of cultural norms.

I never felt like people looked at me as weird or other for my childlessness. Pity, perhaps at times.

I was the wilt-on-the-vine product of a mother who couldn’t.

My 3 siblings all pulled up their bootstraps and created miraculously healthy and shining families. Truly a miracle in my book.

I chose art and collecting mothers.

The women I found (and still find) to mother away the gaping turbulence of the black holes left in the wake of her absence

Are the folks I celebrate today.

I still feel her loss in the deep of my garden of a belly that never grew what it was created to grow.

But I have loved, I tell you.

No woman is more than me for having been blessed with the love of a child born of her womb.

I have loved.

I LOVE.

There are two abortions in my past and I wonder…

And then I feel my love; for self, Mother Earth, family, chosen family, the little plants I placed in a pot this morning, a dog, every darn one of my multitude of creations, all the choices and experiences which got me to Here. The ALLOWANCE to choose.

I love how I love.

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5 Responses to “Mother’s Day”

  1. Nina on May 9th, 2015

    Well and beautifully said as always. Xoxo

  2. Jim on May 9th, 2015

    That’s among your best thinking and writing!

  3. Rita Kindl Myers on May 9th, 2015

    There are many different kinds of love. It is good to read of your experience and positive assertion.

  4. Rita Kindl Myers on May 9th, 2015

    There are many different kinds of love. It is good to read of your experience and positive assertion.

  5. Jenny on May 10th, 2015

    I love the little I know of how you love. So very good, very good.xxx

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