Rescue

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This week brought me three, THREE! separate instances in which I needed rescuing…omg..

The first two involved my new maxi skirt getting caught in the front wheel of my chair.

Due to muscle loss I list to the right and this seemingly sets me up for disaster.

It was a jolt I tell you.

Thankfully I had ahold of Emma’s leash because we stopped dead en-route.

Couldn’t extricate the tattered fabric so we waited….

Soon I spied a guy half a block away and yelled.

Disability brings the gifts of humility, courage, patience and a great beefing up of the gratitude muscle.

All these fine, fine opportunities (?) to exercise these previously foreign muscles

Gives me the heebee-geebees in hindsight.

I hate needing.

Today’s rescue involved Emma’s retractable leash.

The thin cord has a tendency to get tangled in the wheels also.

Just two revolutions of the friggin’ chair usually necessitates cutting the leash off and heading to the pet store the next day for an emergency replacement which costs, I tell you.

Today I sat awhile in the park stopped dead in my tracks awaiting an angel.

Ten minutes of singing to Emma little ditty tunes brought a lovely couple from Colorado.

He was young enough to bend his knees and crouched there working so very intently trying to free us while his wife and I talked dogs.

Success!

I sent them on their way with deep ooh-ing and ahh-ing of thanks as well as a restaurant suggestion.

We were all better for the encounter.

So strange we cower in corners at the idea of our independence inaccessible

When asking for and receiving help seems to always break away old and overused armor

Exposing a heart still familiar with the Grace vulnerability allows.

This is oh-so-valuable to know

But I am exhausted in the remembering.

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4 Responses to “Rescue”

  1. KK Wilder on August 16th, 2015

    I so identify with this – I’m sure most of us who roll instead of walk have been in the same place. Keep on rollin’ dear Cathy.

  2. Carrie on August 16th, 2015

    You are giving us a chance to bravely fulfill that need to help.
    The “What can I do to help” but without being asked.
    The over stated underused ‘paying it forward’.
    You are allowing us to have a moment to feel better about ourselves
    Thank you.
    I will look more carefully around me for those moments. Be more aware.

  3. Carole Zoom on August 16th, 2015

    Sister you know I know this lesson deeply. And I like to help others but rare is the person who likes to receive help.

    I’ve learned that my role is to ask clearly for what I need and the others have a choice to say yes or no — no judgment. It’s their call.

    Is how I learned that no woman is an island — self sufficiency his only so far.

  4. gerry harty on August 17th, 2015

    Dear Cathy…I am learning so much from you and I never realized how much I needed to hear this!!!…I always refuse help but in a “kind” way…and the second I do I am aware of a change in the other person’s face!!! So from now on I say yes! Thank you Cathy for teaching an old dog new tricks. xoxo

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