No Woman

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I am pretty darn sure there isn’t a woman alive who truly enjoys being seen just after waking up;

Mussed up everything, questionable breath and wrinkled pillow marks etched into middle-aged epidermis.

In the deep night I pressed my beloved adjustable bed button

And rose to gather my wits, destination: the restroom.

Seated in my chair I pushed the chair ON button

And n-o-t-h-i-n-g.

It had short circuited..

My mechanical pseudo-prowess kicks in and for an hour I try to fix it with one hand.

No go.

I can do ANYthing. But I can’t.

Get back in bed.

Pet Emma.

Hmm…Another wonderful life lesson about how none of us can control one fucking thing…YAY!

I couldn’t relax enough to sleep so I ran through possible saviors; calculating distance to drive, who do I feel ok enough to let see me looking wrecked and lying in pee?

DAVID!! close by, beloved past boyfriend, he would be sure not to judge.

9:10 am: “David?” (I hear his surprise to get a call from me Sunday morning)

“My indoor wheelchair short circuited and I wondered if you would consider coming over here to help me switch to my larger chair? (I am blessed with a very old small chair.. small enough to keep from banging the shit out of my walls).. I can’t get out of bed.”

“Sure!” he says genuinely up for this morning service call. “I’ll be there in 15 minutes”.

I lie there in bed w/ covers pulled all the way up, spit pasting my hair down and he knocks on the door, Emma hardly barks because she knows when goodness is afoot.


He fixes my life in 4 minutes.

Then I ask if he’d mind taking Emma for a walk.

He shines back at me..”Sure.”

This gives me 10 minutes to de-bedlam myself and when they both return I say: “David..this means so much.”

He says: “I’ve been waiting 3 years for you to ask me to do something for you”.

I am a pill.


9 Responses to “No Woman”

  1. Carole Zoom on January 3rd, 2016

    Moody of us like to help when asked but most of us avoid asking. Give someone the pleasure of doing you a favor.

  2. Joe on January 3rd, 2016

    Hopefully the artwork at the top of your post isn’t a representation of how you look.

    And this is the SECOND time I lost out on the HERO sthick.

    It would only take me about………..8 + hours to get there.

  3. gerry harty on January 3rd, 2016

    I am soaked in tears.So beautiful.Tell him I love him…and you for asking him to help…xoxo

  4. Alexandra Eldridge on January 3rd, 2016

    Well done, Cath! Ask and you shall receive. You are always astounding! Much love, A.

  5. Paul on January 3rd, 2016

    Another touching and uplifting post. Bravo Cathy (and David!), thanks for sharing this little vignette.

  6. Nina on January 4th, 2016

    Well done Cathy. We all need help one way or another.
    Much love
    Happy New Year brave and astonishing girl

  7. Nina on January 4th, 2016

    Well done Cathy. We all need help one way or another.
    Much love

  8. Adele on January 4th, 2016

    Truth and Beauty
    Strange bedfellows
    Not xxxxxxxx

  9. Barbara McDaniel on January 17th, 2016

    WOW. what a life, what a writer! all my love to you!

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