In my teens I was part of a grape-eating contest.

I won with 27 grapes in my mouth at one time.

Never really won anything else..ever.

I have a very big mouth.

Tempting to apologize for leaving you with that image but I won’t.

I won’t because this post is inspired by noticing

All the stuff I do, noises I make, tidying up I don’t, songs I sing, times I rest my head on the desk (3 so far since starting this post), naps I take, middle- of- the- night fussing around, Pinterest looking, project avoiding;

Everything that happens in a single girl-living-alone-with-no-spying-eyes life.

I just love my freedom.

It has, since I can remember, remained my top value.

I chose it over family,kids, marriage/partnership.

Living in close proximity to another human is something I have never excelled at, alas.

Always, their desires and needs were put before my own (because of me, not them).

I became less rather than more in partnership.

Witnessing my interior landscape has and is my very best medicine.

I have had shame in my life bearing accusations of an overly examined existence

But here I am today..a champion grape- holder-big-mouth

Telling you intimate stuff about my hills and valleys.

The gift of insisting on enough space for my soul to thrive

Has allowed a truly extraordinary life

Underscored by astonishing gratitude

For what I learn

Between the lines.


5 Responses to “Grapes”

  1. Jann Tenenbaum on February 9th, 2016

    Unbelievable, just unbelievably wonderful.

    ..I identified with…I became less rather than more in partnership….I thought this is me, how does she say so much with so few words.
    And I LOVED …The gift of insisting on enough space for my soul to thrive…

    Oh my dear, (as you are know to exclaim)….what a fantastic post.
    Delicious, fun and love the grapes!!!

  2. Pam on February 9th, 2016

    I love that I know a champion grape holder big mouth who leads an examined life!

  3. Alexandra Eldridge on February 10th, 2016

    The the others above, I loved this post and your courage to know yourself so well. And it takes courage and a big heart. xxx

  4. Keek on February 10th, 2016

    Blessed we all are to witness you??

  5. Barbara McDaniel on February 11th, 2016

    “the gift of insisting on enough space for my soul to thrive has allowed a truly extraordinary life” – thank you! i feel my life reflected in these words.

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