She Should Be Smiling



The advent of HARRIET TUBMAN’S visage on our $20.00 bill makes my heart soft.

The people responsible for this fine choice made a point of landing her on a 20 dollar bill because we use this currency most often.

No hiding out in the obscurity of a 2 dollar bill for Harriet! NO!

I’ve read some commentary regarding this historic (and pathetically tardy) moment:

“She should be smiling.”

I really wonder how many times we could have saved the world

If all the energy women have used up over the ages smiling when they didn’t feel like it

Was collected and stored?

Harriet was doing some stuff to benefit the world that was pretty non-smiley shit..

Sometimes, I roll round my day and practice not smiling..

Just letting my natural energy soften my whole face into innocence.

My proclivity is to set myself into motion with the historical presentation of a “good girl” etched into all my muscles.

When I consciously let it slough off me and drop in sheets by the wayside

People often ask me if I am ok or if something is wrong.

Inside my physical self I just feel at utter peace so it seems weird that these comments are a reflection of how I am perceived.

One reason I spend so much time alone is that this gives my being a chance to be neutral and non-reactive-by-rote to another’s energy.

Over time I learn the safety in neutrality and authenticity is more my modus operandi.

I love this black face entering the world; passing through our hands, touching us as we touch and honor her courage, fortitude and gravitas.

She helps me know the gorgeousness there in the transparency and force of a de-smiled face.

I love to smile and this helps me stay connected to people as I skirt the lure of isolationism.

We’ve all become a bit too smiley to offset the horrors of everyday life, I think.

The antidote is authenticity when we can sink into who we really are in each moment.


6 Responses to “She Should Be Smiling”

  1. Alexandra Eldridge on April 24th, 2016

    Beautiful, Cathy, as always. xxA

  2. gerry harty on April 25th, 2016

    I agree with you 1000%!!!That is a wonderful painting!!! xoxo

  3. gerry harty on April 25th, 2016

    I agree with you 1000%!!!That is a wonderful painting!!! xoxo

  4. gerry harty on April 25th, 2016

    I agree with you 1000%!!! That is a wonderful painting!!! xoxo

  5. gerry harty on April 25th, 2016


  6. Jann Tenenbaum on April 27th, 2016

    God you’re amazing….pathetically tardy. How are you able to shit on Washington with such righteous sweetness. Amazing girl.
    So happy you put in you $20 on Harriet Tubman, I look forward to your $20 on the Republican Presidential Nomination.
    Lovely Canadian De-smiling from the Liberal North East

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