Sit Down

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I received an email from an old friend recently in which he tells me how he feels about our country after doing some pretty heavy duty traveling to and fro:

” It is damn near impossible for me to live in the US now. There is an energy field in the US that feels creepy to me. I don’t want to belabor the point, but I’ve grown very disappointed with what I see here. The political scene. The mindless and blindness consumerism and the general violence. I do my best with what at times appears to be an impossible way to live. It is what it is. “

I understand him and share much of the sentiment. Many conversations or articles include some form of the question “Where in the world feels sane, clean and forward moving and could we move there?”

Having been pretty much the queen of keeping -the -back -door -in -sight- at -all -times -as -an -exit

I know a bit about avoidance and turning toward comfort no matter what the cost

With the assurance we’ll get a way better life that way.

Here I sit in this chair with really the only back door being choosing to end my life.

To be sure I’ve contemplated it and I pray each person gets the privilege of choosing the possibility of re-upping into life.

Because when we make a choice to really BE HERE no matter what

Is when the good stuff really starts happenin’ ya’ all….

I can’t deliver myself out of this chair by changing locations.

My life is SITTING HERE WITH IT whatever “it” is.

We’ve got “Cathy’s IT” and “America’s IT”, Santa Fe’s “IT” and my dog Emma’s “IT”.

Then we’ve got “Trump’s IT”, “Norway’s IT” and my sister’s “IT”.

What the hell are we to do with all these tapetries intricately woven connecting us all?


I choose peace.

With just a wee bit of vodka.

Can you feel it?


5 Responses to “Sit Down”

  1. Paul on June 17th, 2016

    Hang in there Cathy, you are loved and so long as you can breathe and smile without unbearable pain joy may find and surprise you. And you have so much to give! Keep writing, my dear! It lifts us all up!

  2. Cathy on June 17th, 2016

    assuredly NOT going anywhere soon but am quite sure i am not the only one to have thought they had reached the line they thought they could not go beyond. EVERY time I reach one of those lines it ends up not being my line….onward we all go….xxxx

  3. j Ignacio Ortega on June 17th, 2016

    I can feel it! And coming back ????
    Will forward your Blog To Nicol, my nice
    With MS.

    Kathy you are a God-send, the positive
    Energy and attitude is just what I need
    at this Moment.


  4. j Ignacio Ortega on June 17th, 2016

    Cathy, those ??? Should have been!!! ????

  5. Alexandra Eldridge on June 20th, 2016

    I am far away, but feel you, dear Cath. You astound me as always and teach me so very much. Big love, A

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