Once Upon a Time…..

….in a dank and dingy Boston South End loft

I had a painted clothing business with my friend Richard.

He designed the shape of our offerings and I produced the fabrics.

I have always cared much more about beauty rather than being cool and edgy

But from our photo above you can likely see that Richard, being the young genius he was,

Ate, slept, thought about, costumed himself in and projected the image of:

Cool.

Arctic cool.

And I wasn’t and never will be. Glad of it, too.

In the end he chose a speedy little London cool girl who loved only black and they swept me out the door.

I never worked so hard in my life as I did in that business.

We made amazing things I think:

silk neckties, handpainted, 1980

All those years ago most of my insecure energy was tuned toward changing myself around to jive with circumstances that provided a sense, any smidgeon of a sense of belonging.

Over time, the fathoms-deep richness I have made my own has come from the practice of recognition where and with whom I belong.

I do this by tuning into my body; do I feel energized, safe, inspired, SEEN by this person?

Or- does my physical self feel nervous, bored, used, invisible, weak, foggy?

This is the simple litmus test I have used to make the long journey from the Cathy above who performed so often and well

To this more authentic version.

The road here has been my hero’s journey; long and sometimes very gritty. I am eternally grateful I have chosen to do the work.

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8 Responses to “Once Upon a Time…..”

  1. Rita Kindl Myers on August 7th, 2017

    Sending a heart your way… All of the above is beautiful Work: the fabrics, the photographs and especially the emotional journey…

    (OK, so I wanted a little image of a heart to show up on the first few words… I think you understand the sentiment. I admire your authenticity…)

  2. Karen on August 7th, 2017

    Your talent!

  3. Irene on August 7th, 2017

    Those clothes are amazing.

    I hate to think how much time I’ve spent trying to “belong.” Thanks for the reminder that we make our own place in the world…:)

  4. Barbara McDaniel on August 7th, 2017

    Going through a reset, and this is so instructive. Thank you.

  5. Jenny on August 8th, 2017

    Absolutely beautiful photo of you in white hat. You look radiant Cathy. It was and is a hero journey.

  6. gerry harty on August 9th, 2017

    Wonderful work Cathy!You are my Hero! xoxo

  7. Dennis Chamberlain on August 10th, 2017

    How I would have loved to have owned those ties and the shirt! And as for your journey and transformation, both are extraordinary. I do think you looked “arctic cool and edgy” even though you attribute that strictly to your business partner. Nowadays, you look (and are) “unintentionally sophisticated”, in the most worldly of ways.

  8. Barry on August 11th, 2017

    Wow!

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