Simply Complicated


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When I screw up with a friend I am really hard on myself.

My path in life has been devoted to lifting up the heaviest of metaphorical rocks in my being and having the courage to see, smell and touch the stuff of the dark.

Somehow, I never lost the trail the faint perfume of an innocent, highly charged girl/woman trapped under that weight still exuded.

I found her at last and with oodles of assistance did what it took to dig her out.

I really like her a lot.

She is still revealing herself to me.

It is a damn messy business..getting authentic.

So many costume changes till one finds the right color and fit.

Sometimes I use a telescope..sometimes a magnifying glass.

For all the editing I’ve done over the years.. now, when I find a friend I don’t need or want to edit myself with

All manner of unpolished communication passes between us.

To many people I have seemed complicated in the sense I live a very curvaceous life.

As an artist I know the dark..the light and bright horizonless white of a blank canvas too.

They are the same for me.

The worms and shed skin of a snake are catalysts for curiosity as much as the loamy, sexy smell of dirt under the rocks I’ve displaced.

My life is a lot of the nothingness most pay handsomely for a ticket to once, maybe twice a year.

My life is not a sunny beach

But a swath of sand visited in the early dawn hours after a surprise storm has left large and little treasures strewn every which way.

I must bend down to reach them..not a one has jumped directly into my pocket.

That would be my parting Facebook profile picture:

A woman walking bent over one early morning in half-light; pockets heaving with the damp stretch of treasure.

A little white dog two steps behind tries unsuccessfully to keep it’s feet dry.

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7 Responses to “Simply Complicated”

  1. Jenny on November 3rd, 2017

    So many images so lovely. Maybe the one I like best is unpolished communication! Also a curvaceous life, makes me wonder , what shape is mine ? stacato ‘morse code, or fluid ? It’s such an inviting post.

    And do part with Facebook but not with us? Please, don’t part with us . Xxxx

  2. CaroleZoom on November 3rd, 2017

    Messy bizness indeed. I’m printing woodblocks with Patrick today. Glorious and flawed. At least we have fun.

  3. Barbara on November 4th, 2017

    Cathy,
    your writing is incredible. I really think your writings should be published.

    Barbara

  4. Jann Tenenbaum on November 4th, 2017

    I can’t believe this. It reminded me a little of a sexy tango. I’m up, I’m down, I’m swirling, I am looking at longing glances, joining, separating, flowing angles, so sensual. Your work is incredible.

  5. britt Densford on November 4th, 2017

    I am your sister. I like to go deep. What am I about? Your writing has touched me. Thank you.

  6. Cathy on November 4th, 2017

    Not planning on going anywhere soon..just happily engaged with the big questions xxxxxx

  7. Becky Patterson on November 4th, 2017

    I had to come back and read this beautifully carved self portrait again… And probably again… You are authentic????????????????????????????????????????????

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