Christmas Eve


It is Christmas eve and I am longing for a star to follow.



I wrap up my Emma in a soft cloth

And sling her over my shoulder

To keep her delicate paws off the pesky desert sand.

This would have to be in dreamtime as wheelchairs don’t negotiate desert terrain well.

The mysterious glitter of the bright spot in the sky

Wakes up my heart

To Hope. Adventure!

I pack up my beloved (with 3 NATURE’S VALLEY granola bars for me and Emmas’ freeze- dried treats made with wild boar) and just skedaddle.

It is very dark

But we are not scared.

I see a guy over there in the shadows.

His name is Elon Musk, he says.

“Come with us!” I say. We are following a star.

“Ok” Elon says.

Silently we walk on.

About another mile or so there is another man we meet and before I see him clearly I recognize the voice to be David Attenborough! OMG!!!

He slides in next to us as we walk.

Later that night the bartender from my favorite haunt appears

As well as my third grade teacher

And the homeless woman who is so skittish

And Roseanne, who comes to help me each day.

Ellen Degeneres, Kourtney Kardashian, Anderson Cooper and a weary little boy fighting cancer all join our little parade.

I wish Oprah would show.

The star seems to get brighter and brighter as the night goes on

And our eager group grows to include millions of folks from every walk of life.

We all walk in silence. For hours and hours.

A slight sliver of dawn light appears.

That which we seek is near! Our breathing quickens.

We crest a huge hill.

There sits a small brown box.

Nothing else.

Nothing else at all.

A box.

Just a little bit disappointed at this anti-climactic finale

With a sigh I plop down in the sand and all the people in our caravan form a half circle around me looking over my shoulder as I borrow a knife and begin to open the box.

The gaining dawn is so quiet we can hear the grains of sand skip across with the slightest breeze.

There in the box I find


In shock I say “ALEXA!!! What are you doing all the way out here?”

“You all put in quite a night of travel with hope in your hearts for something magical..even sacred to lift you from your human condition of suffering. All you needed to do was look at who walked beside you, connect with them by way of a slight touch, smile or conversation and if patient enough you just might get the gold. What you seek is right here, in you, near you always. You needn’t work so very hard my darlings.”

Well…now what are we supposed to do, I thought..

I’m so tired and a little cranky after all that.

We turned around and there in front of us was a MARGARITA BAR!

Everyone just bee-lined over there and began sharing stories, memories, math equations, lipstick, tamale recipes, bad jokes, binge-watchable tv, prayers, medicines, inventions, poems and songs and personal trainers..

The bright starlight we followed seemed now to be suddenly swimming in each others’ eyes.

The distance between us was easy and soft.

So much light..

So much light

To find our way home.


(I apologize if any of you found this sacrilege.)


10 Responses to “Christmas Eve”

  1. Irene on December 24th, 2018

    There’s a big smile on my face….thank you. Blessings…


  2. Dominique Mazeaud on December 24th, 2018

    How could you offend us.
    I remember walking on Canyon Road one Christmas long ago with one of my art props in my arms, a beaded Earth from my performance The Most Precious Jewel. I am home alone and away from the madness, personal, local, national., global, and it is so good to hear from you.
    With many many blessings,

  3. Jann Tenenbaum on December 24th, 2018

    wow, this really improved my christmas eve. To share such a magical journey with such a wise friend, I didn’t know this side of you Cathy…. I know your smile was what intrigued and mystified your followers. Your beautiful smile accented in bright Red Bobbi Brown. Love you dear heart, I will lay my head down and dream of you and Emma skedaddling.

    Deep sigh.

  4. Jann Tenenbaum on December 24th, 2018

    Also, what a perfect Graphic for Christmas Eve. Perfect.

  5. gerry harty on December 24th, 2018

    Cathy you are the best!!!wish I could have been there!Merry Christmas to you and Emma and many blessings!xoxoxo

  6. Pamela Platt on December 24th, 2018

    Love, Love, Love!!!
    Merry Christmas Cathy & Em!!!

  7. ellen fox on December 24th, 2018

    This is so gorgeous. And the painting! If only I didn’t have to work I would want to organize a retrospective for you.

    Happy Holy Days.

  8. Jane on December 24th, 2018

    I’m just home from dinner with friends and then the late service at church. This is magical! I think I’ll give it to a magical young woman to read at dinner tomorrow. Happy Christmas!

  9. Debra Moody on December 25th, 2018

    Oh, Silent Night or as Cat Stevens would say, “Morning Has Broken!” What an awesome journey you took us on, dear Cathy and Em! Follow the light – it’s always been good advice…Thanks for the reminder. YOU my dear, are a blessing. ThankyouThankyouThankyou!!! XOXOXO

  10. Becky patterson on December 25th, 2018

    ..math equations, lipstick, tamales. Frickin genius short film movie! I love this! I always find a gift you present . Thank you for YOU!

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