What In The World To Do?

“FINE LINE”,monoprint,22×30″

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A good friend said: “If this political climate continues for another four years I am done with life. I’m outta here”.

I fully understood the sentiment.

I have thought the same about my own ‘micro-world’

Often seeming forever colored by pain or struggle or physical dissolution of some kind in relationship with MS.

There have been a few lines I thought I could not live beyond

But truthfully…getting up close and personal with such “lines”

I find they never are the end game;

The line I think I can’t live beyond.

So what is the thing that grabs me under my armpit for support to ease my weary self across that self-drawn line?

Two things:

1. BEAUTY
This is an honest to God truth for me: each and every time I think I can’t go on or have lost interest in doing such..
Just after such an energy cave-in a thing happens which emerges out of the mist, is usually very small as opposed to monumental
And makes it’s good self known with the sweetest of normalcy.

It could be: “You look so beautiful with your cute dog!” as I roll by
Or maybe someone has passed quite a ways down the street but backtracks fully just to open a door for me.
A stranger has said: “Your attitude inspires me. May I bring you a homemade dinner sometime? Share an evening and get to know you better or just drop the food at your door perhaps?”

The other day it was the tiniest moment catching the eye of a grumbling homeless man when I said “Good Morning” and he lifted his confused head and gave me the purest of smiles.

It is a family members’ financial bail out with no questions asked or my dog’s insistent mid-night press into the small of my back coupled with the indescribable sweetness of a deep and secure sigh eliciting the same from me.

My idea of Beauty used to loom so large. Now it is held in secret and tiny places.

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2. RESPONSIBILITY
These explosions of Beauty help me understand I matter. And you matter. And we each have our responsibility to do what we can to recognize our unique gifts and to give them to our fellow travelers on this grit-laden road. I can’t go precisely because of the beauty I AM..and YOU ARE.

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6 Responses to “What In The World To Do?”

  1. Adele Rosen on June 6th, 2019

    In the heavily guarded Boston airport , where police have rifles , pistols, stun guns with no friendly smiles , I have spent the last ten hours
    I met a man studying to be a Christian preacher and we spoke of Jesus and love
    On my other side was a young beautiful East Indian woman graduate of ocean
    engineering and a bright eye on the future
    Thank you Cathy for your heart on beauty and the seeing of the small kindness
    and the big pictures

  2. Barbara McDaniel on June 6th, 2019

    this this this starts a humming deep inside me, a low bass vibration that hurts and loves and goes on and on. and i think i can hardly stand it… until i surrender, and then i just melt into cherishing you…

  3. Irene on June 6th, 2019

    Every tiny blessing is huge. Thanks for the reminder.

  4. Jenny on June 6th, 2019

    I so often long for a Like button. Lots of Like Buttons, and Share.
    I can’t find the words for a comment but LIKE 🙂 🙂

  5. Alexandra Eldridge on June 7th, 2019

    You always inspire. This time you made me cry at the eyes and heart you see and feel with. Love, A

  6. Olga Krasnova on June 11th, 2019

    “Love. Fall in love and stay in love. Write only what you love, and love what you write. The word is love. You have to get up in the morning and write something you love, something to live for…”
    Ray Bradbury

    This is all about you, dear Cathy! Thank you for the BEAUTY of your word and your writing!!!

    Hugs,
    Olga

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